From the heart …

This is not a rant nor is it a plea for sympathy, it’s a statement of truth – or at least the truth as I currently perceive it and, although truth is sometimes vanquished behind a hazy cloud of emotion, I think it’s just about clear enough for the sun to shine through.

As you all know, for the last year we’ve been looking for our own premises. We’ve inspected  a few, wasted money on surveys and solicitors fees and eventually, so I thought, found what we needed.

Having applied for change of use via planning application it was refused on two naff and poorly justified reasons. Sour grapes you could say, if that were just our opinion you’d be correct, but it isn’t.

So we’ve appealed, a laborious process that involved our club secretary visiting businesses in the area to obtain letters of support and a small payment to an industrious ex student canvasing door to door.

We’ve a strong case, a valid case, justified even and lots of bits of paper! The process will take about 3 months – however, we’ve recently learnt that may cost us the venue.

Not going into details, but suffice to say it doesn’t look good.

I wanted to rant, rave and generally kick things, but after a conversation on Saturday with my mentor Geoff Thompson, I was reminded that my intentions, whatever they were, should be aligned and pure and that the energy used on seeking out some form of retribution was energy ill-spent and wasted.

In short, all my efforts should be directed towards my intended goal and not to the misdemeanours or actions of others – I sort of knew this, but this latin temperament sometimes grabs hold of the English stiff-upper-lipedness and throttles all common sense out of it.

Having declared vociferously in a moment of anger: “If we don’t get this venue I’ll close all the clubs and stop coaching!” I now find myself calmy chastised by my own ‘pure intent’.

We will get a venue and maybe it won’t be this one. We do have to (as reminded by our gorgeous club secretary this morning) think about splitting up the Stopsley kids class into two separate sessions on different days and I have to keep aligning myself and not be distracted.

As Buddha would say: “Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.”